第五十一章: 思索我的轮廓

51st post of my blog. Just noticed lately that every blog has its birthday just like us humans. So I decided to check on my bloggy. And oh!!! Its still far away... So anyway, back to the update.
FIRST!!! Kelantan trip...

Day 1:
Rushed back home straight away after school, fortunate enough there wasn't any jam. Reached home and dad was ready to fetch us to LCCT. Tummy starved and I could munch a whole cow. Went to check-in first and then only had lunch. 3.30 and Mom rushed into the gates at the speed of light. And then the main part came. The stupid police that was on duty scanned my mom's pencil box and took away her stapler and scissors. (WTF, The last time when I went to Sabah, this didin't happen, now it happens. Whats the definition for consistency?) Skip that annoying part.

Sat down. And then was informed of a fake news - flight delay, C'mon, the plane arrived right on time!! Don't scare us. When I arrived, uncle and cousin sister was there. Fetch us back to Wakaf Bharu. Uncle suddenly wanted to buy Nasi Dagang and Kerabu Hitam.(Lol? Dinner is near and you still want 3 packets?) No wonder he has a round tummy. Greedy.

At night. Ate dinner as if we reunited. Ate at Cheng Mai restaurant. Damn full because relatives left little bits of scraps for me, knowing how much I can eat. 11.30 p.m., decided to follow cousins to Pasir Mas to spend the night, Mom stays at Wakaf Bharu. When I arrived, I surfed the net for a while and then slept like a log.

Day 2:
The big day. Cousin woke me up at 6.41. Eyes were exhausted, Went to clean up, and then took off to the graves, spended like 2 hours there cleaning up the graves. I have to admit that the burning smoke was irritating. After that, went to have breakfast, nasi kukus with ayam panggang and rendang lembu. Absolutely satisfying. After that, relatives took me to Rantau Panjang. A duty-free area where you can shop for imitated stuff and brands. (Well, its the brand where you and I know very well, the tick and the triangle.)

The one thing that was funny and cocky, was the Crocs Shoe. They have this price tag on it to make you believe like its real but rejected, but take a closer look, the code on each tag is the same (= . =)
And then continued rounding, mom shopped for stuff too, she saw a fake MU jersey and bought it for me, thanks mom. And then I went to look for my uncle, guess what? He was busy trying on shoes, and ended up buying 4 pairs of fake Nike and 3 pairs of fake Adidas shoe. I asked him for an explanation, here's what he said " I'll take these back to Sabah and sell them, and then I'll make a good fortune." (...)

On the way back, stopped by a Thai Buddhist temple, guess what legend hides behind it? The sleeping buddha!! It was enormous. Pictures? Later upload. Lazy.

Day 3:
Plan to wash shoes today (Don't forget I went to the air port with my school shoes and uniform on.) But I was lazy, and relatives also invited me to somewhere similar to Rantau Panjang. That was pangkalan Kubor. So mom asked my aunt's Kakak to wash my shoes. Yay, problem solved.

Wel Pangkalan Kubor wasn't as fun as Rantau. But at least got to see the difference. Slept through the whole afternoon. At night, mom went to Pasir Mas because she wanted to give some free tution for my cousin sisters who don't even know their timestable at the age of 11. I stayed upstairs surfing the net again. I have to say one thing. Maxis broadband is so unstable.

Day 4:
RETURNED HOME!!!

SECOND!!! What I earned from the trip?
Relatives gave me his ADIDAS SHOE!!! (No, its not fake) Fake MU JERSEY!!! (Yes, definitly fake.) And two Thai Buddhist Tok Raja Rare Amulets.( Nope they are not normal, one can cost up to 4000 bucks Malaysia ringgit.)

As a result? I'm Happy and I'm not forgetting that the second exam is not far!!!
Countdown 2 months and a week.

第五十章: 乡风

After waiting for a week and 3 sickening days, I'll be departing to Kelantan tomorrow, for Ching Ming.
Well, I'm not gonna ask you to not miss me, its pointless. Here's some lyrics that I'd like to share, if you're smart enough, this was meant as an advice, hope you notice who you are...

风 - 陈诗莉

风要我迅速撤离 它要我离开你 它要我成全你们在一起 重伤的爱情凝不成泪滴 无语

风曾带我到天际 在那里遇见你 主宰的你掌握一切魔力 刹那间我从云端坠落到无靠无依

风看过爱的叱吒 也见过我的崩塌 好伤 你背叛你的牵挂 我以为我会害怕 我不怕

风要我把你放下 别让恨变成代价 算了吧 你让我一夜长大 见识到人性真假 想说的话找不到人说话 风静静吹着我的心 成流沙

And, one more thing...














Man Utd vs Liverpool 2 - 1!!!!!!!!

- 身 骑 白 马-
* Its all about the figures...*

第四十九章: 陌生人

The wonderful night that fit for a review, I lay down on my bed, Glancing at that thick pile of paper, it was definitely "Sejarah Input". I turned through the pages, trying to search for the feel that I had a year ago, and there was this voice I heard, there were 2, the source, clearly from downstairs, the living room. And there went my dad and mom, discussing about me and my perfect little life.

Curiosity kills, my curiosity automatically lead me out side my room, and there I overheard a conversation from upstairs, that then after spoiled and crushed myself into bits and bits. This was what they truely thought about me? Irresponsible, proud over a result that they did not recognize, I was a body with holes, the corrosion of habits, causing me such a terrible price to pay. And here, I have to state it out, before these words start to kill me...

I'm irresponsible? Just because I DRIP A FEW BITS OF WATER ON THE FLOOR AFTER BATH?
I'm irresponsible? Just because I LEFT THE TAP OPEN FOR THAT TWICE???? Dad, ever since you nagged at me for the incident, bathing wasn't pleasure anymore, it was like look out any time for water drops or you'll get a scolding again. Bathing while looking out for thieves. Bathing was to be careful for any disaster like dripping a drop of water on the floor. Checking the tap and close it tightly cause you'll scold me even if the tap drips a little. Responsibility? If I did not gain responsibility, I need not sit in front of the study table everyday and not leaving it for 5 hours, do a survey damn it, how many 15 year old kid can sit down and input a whole fucking lot of data into their brains? If I did not gain responsibility, I need not practice my piano everyday, you claim that I don't cause you don't get to see it when I do, And everytime when I defend myself saying yes I did practice, you say there's no point continuing to talk my son. Responsibility? Just because you became so damn independant when you were young, doesn't mean that these small things that I;m doing doesn't count as responsibility. You feel worried? I feel sad, lost, dissapointed.

Second issue, I came downstairs to inform mom about some important things about piano, I was going to have replacement class on tuesday, wednesday, and thursday, that would mean three days of lesson straight. Teacher said that I would hardly learn anything and asked if I would prefer to pay half the fees next month or continue my classes. It was because of I would hardly learn anything, you pissed off. Hello, don't bless me. Get the situation right first, its not me who requested for that half month fees suggestion, it was my teacher, ask before you talk.

You think you know me so well and yes I have to agree that you know me well, but there was one thing that you left out, it was how I feel, my feelings. Why is it that so many parents around me know how their children feel when you don't? Being in the house with you is like being with a time bomb, I never know how great you want me to be. Dad, If it was the "fuck" word incident, I apologize, But if you're unhappy, am I?

I don't seem to be any better than you...

- 身 骑 白 马-
* 你 说 你 不 快 乐, 我 也 从 来 没 有 快 乐...*

第四十八章: 我笑着回来

Its quite amazing to see the last post I made and its date, that was like new years eve, This blog should have been updated with loads of new year stories. But I gave up, since there wasn't really much to talk about. And so why it continued remaining in its quiet status? Because of exams, its an extremely important event for Form 3s. Anyway, the battles over and it doesn't mean the end, its just the beginning. And if you'd like know about how I did, I'd reply with "No comment". All I want to do is believe that one day, I would stand at the foyer of my school, holding a piece of paper with a smile that portrays with exellence on my face... And by that time, I shall confirm that I've proved my hardwork...

Back to the updates. Fisrt, examination. And the below shall be my analyzed data:
- BC: Not quite confident with this subject. Due to carelessness, I've completely failed a few objective answers. And adding up with that terrible essay which I failed to elaborate effectively. I have to say the chance of getting an A is thin.

- BM: I'll jump down from KLCC. I promise. I shall only leave my soul to stray in the streets.

-BI: If I don't get an A. I seriously must have a problem. Personally think that I did a wonderful essay.
This ain't perasan.

- SC: Not confident. It drains me down to know that my last 2 questions in paper 2 completely sucked. As for my objective. Just got to confirm that 4 questions were answered wrongly.

- MA: This is one interesting paper. In my experience, Catholic authorities would never create such standard papers. It was fucking easy. Although I sucked at paper 2. But hope the objective paper could pull me back on track.

- GE: The paper isn't really hard. Just a little tricky and catchy. I'm worried about my sikap marks.

- SJ: A whole load of confidence. Just not sure if I can achieve my target for 90 and above.

- KH: No comment due to its normality.

- PM: 3A4 is definitely gonna murder Martina for not telling us that the school moto was coming out in the paper. Overall, did not expect the questions to be that simple. Except for the school vision thingy.

Second, is about life. I'm really lost and I don't know if there are limits in his world. How much and how great must I do to achieve your expectations dad? If this is not named as independent, what is? If This isn't called effective studies, what is? Lifeless old me.

-身骑白马-
*I'm the one living my future, and you're the one being afraid...*