第四十八章: 我笑着回来

Its quite amazing to see the last post I made and its date, that was like new years eve, This blog should have been updated with loads of new year stories. But I gave up, since there wasn't really much to talk about. And so why it continued remaining in its quiet status? Because of exams, its an extremely important event for Form 3s. Anyway, the battles over and it doesn't mean the end, its just the beginning. And if you'd like know about how I did, I'd reply with "No comment". All I want to do is believe that one day, I would stand at the foyer of my school, holding a piece of paper with a smile that portrays with exellence on my face... And by that time, I shall confirm that I've proved my hardwork...

Back to the updates. Fisrt, examination. And the below shall be my analyzed data:
- BC: Not quite confident with this subject. Due to carelessness, I've completely failed a few objective answers. And adding up with that terrible essay which I failed to elaborate effectively. I have to say the chance of getting an A is thin.

- BM: I'll jump down from KLCC. I promise. I shall only leave my soul to stray in the streets.

-BI: If I don't get an A. I seriously must have a problem. Personally think that I did a wonderful essay.
This ain't perasan.

- SC: Not confident. It drains me down to know that my last 2 questions in paper 2 completely sucked. As for my objective. Just got to confirm that 4 questions were answered wrongly.

- MA: This is one interesting paper. In my experience, Catholic authorities would never create such standard papers. It was fucking easy. Although I sucked at paper 2. But hope the objective paper could pull me back on track.

- GE: The paper isn't really hard. Just a little tricky and catchy. I'm worried about my sikap marks.

- SJ: A whole load of confidence. Just not sure if I can achieve my target for 90 and above.

- KH: No comment due to its normality.

- PM: 3A4 is definitely gonna murder Martina for not telling us that the school moto was coming out in the paper. Overall, did not expect the questions to be that simple. Except for the school vision thingy.

Second, is about life. I'm really lost and I don't know if there are limits in his world. How much and how great must I do to achieve your expectations dad? If this is not named as independent, what is? If This isn't called effective studies, what is? Lifeless old me.

-身骑白马-
*I'm the one living my future, and you're the one being afraid...*

第四十七: 除夕之夜

Yay!!! I'm back, as I type, I feel the itch peeling off my skin at my fingertips. Ironic, I;m back during new years eve. Anyway, I've got a long post to create, since its been like a whole month I've stop blogging. Loads have happen =D. I can't wait till I finish this post, Will be having homemade steamboat for tonight's dinner. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAA.....

First thing, Lets just ignore the conversation in my chatbox and Yong Hong's chatbox. That bunch of idiotic dickheads can go home and knock their heads at their walls. I'd wish you guys burn in hell. Jackass, if you really think what you said is right, why don't you suckers try to change and train the 08' generations? We're like puuppets to you guys, all you people do is use us to get some benefit for the team. And when the time comes, you throw us at a corner like garbage, seeking for new tools. And then when the problem pops out, you make meetings that talk about stupid stuff, and when you can't solve the problem, your solution is spamming a junior's blog, criticizing about how useless he is when you don't realize how much this person has done for you. ( PS: I'm not talking about myself. Just in case you bomb me for another stupid reason. I'd buy an insurance package for myself first.) Anyway, enough said, Leaving means Leaving, you guys not happy, fire me.

Second thing, officially announcing that, Mr.Guna's fetching me from now on. My FIRST experience sitting in a school transport. The cool thing is, He drives vigorously. Awesome... AND! When he turns on the radio. (Especially hitz.fm) I'd get supper excited, the speakers are like bass machines you can hear the beat so loudly, Thats the best way to enjoy energized music. He fetches 3 persons including me, the other one is Zhong Yih, the other is Khai Sin.

Third thing, I've bought my new year clothings!!! I'm extremely happy this year, cause Mom has finally woke up from her sleep, allowing me to buy Oreef branded clothes!!! My favourite brand. They really have quite awesome designs and its really comfortable when its on hot days, cause the clothes are made of extreme soft cotton. Nice... Surprisingly, the price seems to have become a little cheaper than last year. I bought one last year at around 35 ringgit, this year I bought it at 24 bucks. I Lol-ed when I saw the price tag. Its all complete, except I need a pair of jeans for certain occasions when needed.

Fourth, I suppose everyone is afraid of it, 1st term exam is around the corner. I didn't expected it, but turns out we have loads and loads of Form 1 and 2 stuff to memorize. I'm starting to tremble. I'm only prepared for sejarah form 3 bab 1 and 2. Shit. Guess I'll have to buck up a lot. I'll squeeze some time out this hols to do some revision. Anyway, I'm not really going anywhere except staying at home if things go as planned. I'm not even going for that class reunion dinner since Shogun is damn expensive. RM52.85 after discount!!?? That's like killing someone without guard. Really, CHS is one rich man's world which I don't really seem to belong to.

Alright, updates done, guess I'll change my mixpod songs into some new year atmosphere. Have a prosperous new year bloggers and everyone out there. By the way, if you prefer celebrating valentines, you;re the reason traditions and customs will exterminate one day. Feel ashamed of yourselves.






















-身骑白马-
*虎年行大运!!!!*

第四十六章: 三十一个脚步

Yep, 31 weeks people... the first month of year will be over in just 2 more days... I wonder what have I done? My senior was kind enough to remind me to stop the honeymoon, PMR's not far away. Speaking of examination, things will start really soon, and... I'm only prepared for Sejarah... XD....

Anyway, back to my update. The fourth week, Guess it was Tuesday... 3A4 returned back into a 48 membered Union. A new student was arranged to be in our class. Not sure if the guys are happy, since she's a girl, quite short (I'm not saying I'm tall.), and quite okay larhx... But I'm sure some of the girls gang (English ones) are delighted... at least the new girl is characterized as your species...

Next... My transport is unstable. I pity mom for having to fetch me day and night. Its real costly and tiring. I struggled through the month seeking for a transporter and was always ended up dissapointed with answers like "Sorry, my van's full" or "I never fetch students from your place, its too far liao..." CRAP!!! Luckily, Mr.Guna, former class teacher of 2A4, was available. Which means next Monday, I'll be in his car. But then, what's quite unbelieveble, is... Nah, not gonna mention...

OK, Tasks needed to be finnished at the time being...
1) Jingcao Long Term Proposal
2) Crappy Projek Sivik with only a team of four. (Consisting of two useful people, thats me and Ven Zheat. The other two makes me speechless.)
3) Sejarah Nota Bab 2 including a target of hafal-ing
4) Gao tim my geografi....

THATS IT.. ITS A WHOLE NEW MONTH YU HAN... BUCK UP@!!!!!!!@

-身骑白马-
*Stand up, I have to stand up...*

第四十五章: 社会.我们

The society. I just lately sense the great danger that will fall. Its like the chain reaction. Which I somehow don't know how to explain, or mostly don't know where to start. Just perhaps, you might not know what I'm trying to say, but as I speak, you will at the least be inspired. That's what I hope.
Please read with patience as I'm sure it will benefit you.

When we talk about the world and its future. We know clearly how enormous it can be. So we'll start by just a small country, Malaysia. How are the teenagers in Malaysia? I wish that "you" reading this post right now figure out closely. How exactly is the correct word to describe us all? We start clan by clan. The Malays, according to what I observe everyday, they have absolutely lifeless. When I say lifeless, it means that they don't know why they exist or they don't know why they live, they don't have the force or motivation to do anything, that means they have no ambition, no dream, at all. Nothing. Blank like a piece of paper. The Indians, they aren't really good neither, I'm not criticizing. Its true, some just take it too serious on other people's eyes. They don't have confidence, there's another reason, they don't have the perfect political leader. This causes them to be one of the poor citizens of Malaysia. And thid gradually affects the teenagers to be not that potential. Us, the Chinese. Don't be happy, There's a lot of holes I can talk about including me. Our clan face the same problem too. I'll take a simple example. How do you feel when you see homework? How long will it take for you to finish 9 homework? How much do you like to learn? How many of us agree to the statement "Life suck"? The we zoom deeper in to the scope. Do all of us really have our ambitions? Are we all learning what it takes to face the problems of society life? Is this the way we pay the depths of our parents? And then we come to questions of conclusion that applies to all clans on planet earth?

Do we have what it takes to lead the future? What it takes to teach our younger generations? No, we don't even know how to budget 150 bucks for a month that includes stationary, food, or postpaid bills..

What causes this all? On some circumstances, our parents and the environment influence a part of this. Our old ones, all grow up in a non-materialistic and educative environment. They know the ways and turns to teach a child. But when we grow up, the temptation of environment is a much powerful force that mankind can overcome. Turns out, parents become completely helpless as they see us grow into rotten apples while they can do so less. Some are even unlucky, when the child is brought up by a parent who knows nothing about the traditional education but only money. He's rich so what? His status ruins the child creating a monster, a freak, which turns out to be most of us today. We have to face the fact, we are all rotting without even us knowing. That applies to me too.

And then what happens? We grow up in the future, turning out as unexperienced leaders. The old ones are forced to choose the worst among the best. But they do not know how to lead a country's social, economy, and political issues. We then become unstable, while the birth of new generations continue, and when the condition continues. We create more and more rubbish. By then we have to consider other aspects, the natural resources running out, the ozone layer becomes as thin as paper. Ice bergs vannish, extinction, extermination, the end of the world. Whats left for the value of mankind? Nothing, Nothing except the term we know... Dooms day.

Is the movie 2012 a crap of junk? I don't think so. How about you?

Actions are needed, humans.

-身骑白马-
*The day the earth still stands...*

第四十四章: 曲子的轮廓

I seriously have no idea about the reason I thought of that title up there. Perhaps choir's inspiration? Anyway, lets talk random. (Don't think what I'll talk about next is really random.) Ok, Never have I had suck a free day in school since morning session like today. The main reason is due to the last two periods, it was like redefining "R-E-L-I-E-F". Well, a relief is a relief. So what exactly did I do under a condition of no homework? Well, I hid myself behind the classroom and sang. Those who were involved, you'll get the situation.

The best part was singing the hits back in 2007 and 2008 and 2009.(I think?) Really enjoyed myself back there. It has been so long since I have had the chance to sing for an hour.(PS : Shi Ken had this magnificent voice that made everyone suffer in laughter badly.) Especially the part when he sang ' Meet me halfway'. Damn hilarious. BTW, Kah Mun gave me 20 cents that I forgot to return. He suggested that I go to the Kopitiam and sing. (Lol)

Ok, the bell rang. (Oops, forgot to take our the garbage.) Aiyah, who would fucking care about that?
Rushed down to canteen and randomly bought the spaghetti which made me throw up. I had to rush to the choir room for newcomer's day. The front part... Err... I'll skip the speeches. And the performance was great. The violin player was damn good. The play was gay. And then the singing. The gang sang christmas songs. (Forgot the names.) Then the Form 1 and 2s were to assemble. I teamed up with two strangers that I knew.(Lol?) Brandon and Jun Yi, If not mistaken, to do some sort of voice interview key by key. This is that best part. I used to be soprano, but ended up in bass.
WHAT THE HELL????? (Trying not to use the F word.)

That rounds up everything. I'll not say anything about Jingcao's meeting. Damn speechless with my seniors. PBC should be burned in hell.

-身骑白马-

第四十三章: 平复

Hi bloggers. Just felt that there was a need for an update. Seeing that I won't be able to update this site in the next few days... Just manage to pull myself back on the road. After that incident, I do think that dad and I needs to calm ourselves down. (PS: I'll not mention what happen.) Things have been quite normal lately. I go to school as usual. Finnish my homework on time as usual, eat as I do, Sleep as I do, bath as I do. JUST, don't talk as I do.

But things have been calmed to a temporary level at the time being. Trying to fight the negative soul inside my driver. But fighting it doesn't result in what I call motivated fighting spirit. I'm still down although I act as I don't. I act because I don't want to show depression in school. But the motives are still the same. I'll fight for a straight A and I mean it.

Things happened lately:
1) Was reminded of how a broken heart sounds like.
2) Enjoyed all my homework and writting.
3) Reviewing Form 1 (Sejarah and Science)
4) Preparing what I call the book damned chinese new year. Which means I'll celebrate the festivals
by doing revision. No plans at all.
5) Churches Burned at a 4th degree. The society today is sick.
6) Conclusion? Normal. Normal. Normal

Anything else?
Ciao~
-身骑白马-
*The moment you lead a normality in life, you should be thankful, thats what I'm trying to do...*

第四十二章: 不应有的渴望

夜空和宇宙,
象征两种遥远的轮廓,
你的要求,
我的渴望,
成为一段距离,
好模糊, 好遥远...

No Matter what I do, No matter how hard I try,
I can never reach it, that level seems so far...
No Matter what I ask, its always too much...
I'm not the perfect type...
I will never be independent enough in your eyes...
I will never grow up... to you...
Because of my own doings...
Your weren't the fucker...
I was the one...


I was the piece of fuck...

-身骑白马-
*解脱,有吗?*